Random I know but I had a weir dream and I told myself to also journal every dream I remembered. Well my dream was that the animal around my grandmas house appeared around there nd it was trung to go in and I killed it by it's neck. It apparead to be something like panther. Then some other two animals apeared attacking the family.

alright so update from yesterday and today


yesterday i eat ok not too healthy but not fattening. in the morning i munched on a little pack of peanut butter crackers and i had coffee along with those quaker rice snacks. then later on i had an egg sandwich and guacamole with like 2 tortillas and for dinner i had my oatmeal. and i did work out for like 15 mins


today i had some organic pancakes with two scrambled eggs then i went to church and walked all the weay there and came back walking too. i had a salad with romaine and egg and im not gonna lie but i did put more than enough cheese and dressing. i know that was bad. i also snacked on a beach diet thingy thats suppost to not get you hungry or satifsy your hunger while i waited for 5 o clock to eat my actual meal which was the sealad, a small whole wheat bread and for snack i had guacamole and chips.


starting tomorrow i will give myself a score and i will add it up at the end of each month. it will be kinda like a test everyday

ok so my boy and i went to watch new moon and it was BADASS!! anyways...i thought i would pigout on popcorn or nachos but guess what? i didnt. i left the nachos aside and i was really into the movie. i know little by little i oculd control myself. the day hasnt ended but i know i could control my urge for sweets. i just had a hard boiled egg and mayo samich it was delicous but it was "snack" later on as an actual meal i will have turkey with potatoes and veggies...after that IM DONE

ok so for the last three days

what the heck have i been doing?


well pretty much on Tuesday i indulged myself with sweets. i know that's pretty bad! i had healthy meals but i had way too much sugar. so Tuesday was a bad day!

Wednesday i had teriyaki chicken and it was healthy enough but then i eat Asian pastries..yeah those moon cakes must be pretty damn bad and full of calories.

today Thursday i am not going to lie but i think i did great. not too much sweets and i had leftover chicken teriyaki and a salad and in the morning some oatmeal.


my plan for tomorrow is snack a little bit since i will go watch NEW MOON and of course i have to snack but i will fight the urge and snack healthy things. i will refuse that succulent popcorn and stick to baby carrots


the weekend...well the weekend i don't have a lot planned but i will stay and work out at my house and i will buy stuff to make salads since there's never options on what to eat at this house.


so far for workout i haven't gave up! YES that's a first!

i been running at the park with my bf before school but the only thing that's messing me up pretty bad its the shoes and i got shin splints! NO BUENO. so i have to take out like 60 greens from my pockets and buy a pair of GOOD running shoes and not the payless cheap shit i have.

today i woke up and then took the bus...i met with my boyfriend and then we went to run. it was a bit tedious considering it was hard for me to inhale through my nose! anyways...we ran for like an hour with shortish breaks it wasn't intense but i was there trying right


what i eat?
after we went to run
we went to Ralph's because we were hungry and hadn't have any breakfast so we bought stuff to make salad and here's what my salad contained

little bit of cheese
thousand island
croutons
small amount of tortilla chips
and of course lettuce


it was good i enjoyed it a lot

then later on i got hungry once again:( yes i know sadness...and my boyfrend and i shared a subway and it was a black forest ham

i got home to eat a small portion of olive garden leftover from my bday in sunday!

that was all!


oh and i forgot i had granola bars like about 2 little packs

i started to look back in time and i fond myself always being the "chubby girl"....people have always described me as chubby and its something i am about to change. when my 11th grade started, i wasnt chubby anymore! i was the FAT rockabilly girl. i couldndt wear cute clothes any longer because nothing would fit me. for the last 3 years this has been secretly bugging me, trying everything to loose weight nothing worked.
this time i am sure it will work. i dont have time to loose i am 19yrs old and overweight? now thats when i start to think there is certainly something horrendously wrong with me. so i am starting to blog my progress week to week. not because i want anyone to read it, but so i could read it myself and know my weekly progress....like a dairy! i hope this will help me



started doing exercise nov. 10

PRETTY CRAZY TODAY ME AND MY BF WE WERE ON THE FREEWAY WHEN HIS DADS CAR'S TIRE EXPLODED OUTTA NOWHERE IT WAS SCARY GOOD THING NOTHING ELSE HAPPENED. HE NEVER NOTICE ANYTHING WIERD WITH THE CAR./. I THOUGHT I WAS LIVIN THE LAST SECONDS OF MY LIFE HONESTLY.

ANYWHOM THIS IS MY FIRST POST HERE. I DONT KNOW HOW THIS WORKS SO IF ANYONE COULD EXPLAIN ME ILL BE HAPPY.